From when we were young
I am home, in a room with propped up canvases, shelves full of old records, a Shaun the Sheep hot water bottle and a very large sunhat that acts like a sail. There is also a suspiciously large amount of loft insulation that is always speedily removed on my return. There is not much to do here – the house is surrounded by tall trees, a fast flat road outside, and a pothole-filled lane leading up to a big lake opposite.
My GPS is at a loss as to what to tell me. I could be in the bermuda triangle for all it knows. And whilst I hated that when I was a teenager, cut off from the outside world a little, it’s wonderful to come back to now – for a couple of days at least. My old room is cream with warm glowing bulbs, thick home-made curtains that let no light in, and it’s all very soft. It’s kind of how heaven’s always pictured but with more texture and a wicker laundry basket in the corner. Heaven probably doesn’t have one of those.
It is nice to have a garden too., with trees. We do not have trees in my current garden. It is full of memories of being driven around in a wheelbarrow and a sun spinner I bought during university from a Brighton kite shop.

I grew up to the sounds of Heart FM and although my Mother gets excited when she hears the Beatles, my parents play faintly poor music (save for some Eric Clapton, and a Bob Marley album I once pushed on them). That’s the privilege of the young though – we’re allowed to think our music taste is substantially better.
The CD here collection revolves around Tina Turner (who should stop wearing leotards now), Capital Gold and Phil Collins, who is an easy target for insult. Having said that, every time since leaving home a Phil Collins song has appeared on the radio or in a film I’ve been overwhelmed with a sense of nostalgia and being ten years old again.
Watching American Psycho yesterday I was overcome with delight and felt the need to jab urgently at the screen, eagerly informing everyone that I used to dance around the living room to No Jacket Required (the album with the startling face of Phil Collins looming out of it) long before I discovered what rhythm was. It’s worth looking up the original video for this – Mr Collins demonstrates some incredibly shoddy acting skills. Even I might outrank him in that department.
I used to sneak Paul Simon’s Rhythm of the Saints album on and listen to the first track because I loved the drums and I’ve been listening to it at work, wondering quite how I feel about Mr Simon. I think I might very much like him.
This used to play all the time on the radio and played in a bar last week, at which point every male in the room (bar one or two) proceeded to do their best Dad dancing. My Mother hated it because it sounded too much like rap. I spent my time wondering why they were singing about rain coats. It’s only now I’ve realised they aren’t. Wonderful and terrible songs that have somehow worked themselves into a deep and darkly loved repertoire.




















